As you know, right here in Jakarta there was a bombing just yesterday, and the location was very close to my school. So I was kinda worried yesterday, but not anymore now. Besides, that's not what I want to talk about right now. If you want to know how it happened and so on, you can google it.
Right now I'm feeling quite sad, and I don't even know why. And I'm easily pissed today. I think it has something to do with the fact that I've been sleeping for just 4-5 hours a day, with all the crazy routines I have to do. I'm not usually this weak, but maybe it's because I'm still in the holiday mode, you know? So yeah, hopefully this holiday mode will last sooner rather than later.
I've been missing my friends so much. I actually just met them last Sunday, but it just didn't do me justice because I didn't really talk much to them. I might meet them again next Monday, but that depends on my ability to study really hard this weekend. I have so much shit to do I'm confused which one should I do first. And when I'm too tired, it's just hard for me to focus on my work. So these 3 days are going to be a challenge, and I'm bound to no rest at all. Wishing myself the best.
Last night while I was falling asleep, I can actually feel my body being grateful to the touch of my sheets, my covers, the softness of the pillow. I've had worse times before, but this was the first time I can practically hear my body surrender to the rest I'd been needing. Wow that was weird. I need a lot lot lot of energy to be able to get through February, at least, because my agenda is so full until next month. Just thinking about it actually makes me choke a bit. So I don't know anymore. Why is it so hard for me to survive right now? And I feel like these days, time goes so slow for me, so I have to, like, bear these exhaustions even longer now. Does that make sense?
Yeah, sorry for the stress rant. Anyway, I am dying to listen to The Sound by The 1975! I'm using school computer right now, which doesn't have any speakers (SIGH) so I can't listen to it at the moment. I've seen a lot of positive comments about the song, and I really can't wait to hear it myself!
Cologne - Selena Gomez
Right now I'm feeling quite sad, and I don't even know why. And I'm easily pissed today. I think it has something to do with the fact that I've been sleeping for just 4-5 hours a day, with all the crazy routines I have to do. I'm not usually this weak, but maybe it's because I'm still in the holiday mode, you know? So yeah, hopefully this holiday mode will last sooner rather than later.
I've been missing my friends so much. I actually just met them last Sunday, but it just didn't do me justice because I didn't really talk much to them. I might meet them again next Monday, but that depends on my ability to study really hard this weekend. I have so much shit to do I'm confused which one should I do first. And when I'm too tired, it's just hard for me to focus on my work. So these 3 days are going to be a challenge, and I'm bound to no rest at all. Wishing myself the best.
Last night while I was falling asleep, I can actually feel my body being grateful to the touch of my sheets, my covers, the softness of the pillow. I've had worse times before, but this was the first time I can practically hear my body surrender to the rest I'd been needing. Wow that was weird. I need a lot lot lot of energy to be able to get through February, at least, because my agenda is so full until next month. Just thinking about it actually makes me choke a bit. So I don't know anymore. Why is it so hard for me to survive right now? And I feel like these days, time goes so slow for me, so I have to, like, bear these exhaustions even longer now. Does that make sense?
Yeah, sorry for the stress rant. Anyway, I am dying to listen to The Sound by The 1975! I'm using school computer right now, which doesn't have any speakers (SIGH) so I can't listen to it at the moment. I've seen a lot of positive comments about the song, and I really can't wait to hear it myself!
Cologne - Selena Gomez